Preparing to jump-

Stronger together.

Can you remember the walk to your first day of school probably not, but you will have possibly heard how you stood at the gate refused to be kissed and as you stepped away paused turned back and smiled nervously. I think even today we all at some point should let that inner child show up, find a moment at the door, or the gate or just as we depart in the car to pause, for the day and to set the compass for the day ahead.

I raise this as we now stand at the end of our imaginary diving board. I thought before we jumped in we could hold a moment of thought about that fall or in a more confidant term leap ! One of the many things journaling and shares with others has done for me is awaken my inner child and start to rebuild my own thoughts and perception on my bearings and directions already travelled. As we now prepare for this leap the feeling occurs to me of the Why ? For me it is to become a better me, a more complete jigsaw hopefully all the pieces as far as possible will be in the right places and possibly some of the more frayed pieces tidied up and placed in to the finished picture with care- but hold on there is several pieces missing !! Calm Calm everyone as you all probably like me feel that way at times, yet as you have joined me you are the holders of those important elements yet to be discovered, you can help me, help you find those infuriating bits that wiggle their way into the couch or sofa sides only to be doomed to be sucked up in the hoover or saved by a young enquiring hand, “Mummy look what I found !”

“To be someone must be a wonderful thing” sang Paul Weller back in the days of the Jam and one thing I have been doing for this year is revisiting song from as early as I can remember and funnily enough one song plays in my head the Streak by Ray Stevens 1974 making me the tender age of 8 , but now comedy aside we all at some point felt like Ethel, curiosity then as in the song she strips off and joins in ,Did she just want to be someone ?

Bringing us back to the board we are about to leap off , do you notice I used the word Leap there without hesitation as I now have you with me ,I like Ethel know you are here, We are here together and stronger. (That doesn’t mean I want you to streak)

Yes , Yes together we are stronger because we all bring our own strengths and experiences of journeys and adventures with us .We can all look forward to the leap with our compasses set in our souls to keep going forward.

I was in fact adopted, so I had strangely felt at times like I had 2 compasses, one of nature and one of nurture and that is something I look forward to discussing more of in the pool , But we all have the compass of conscience being are backup guide, I smile as this always makes me think of Jimmy cricket in Pinocchio listen, you can him whistle. All this sounds nostalgic I know but having the Why ? and then the lets do it I had not even contemplated the going alcohol free was just the start for the avalanche of emotions and release of suppressed anxiety’s I carried in my backpack of life.

I have always been very open about mindful experience and I attended a Regression Session - I just love the way that roles of the tongue so lets say it again Regression Session , there does that not just feel good. So regression, its not for everyone but I kept the tape and listened to it several times .WOW I cannot lie it actually quite scared me on the first listen and I remember the lady being concerned about my depth of consciousness and how and when I awoke I was very cold and sweating profusely. However do not let that put you off because I was fine and actually I would consider a second go. I 100% found it an amazing experience and a lot of what I touched on during it and how it fits became even more important when I found my real mother in later life. so again the compass of my life has helped both in the real time and also when on my journey in regression it took me to places I was not even aware I had been.

So what lies ahead is starting to appear a little less daunting and we now have the void between the end of the diving board and the space between us and the surface, who knows what lies beneath ?

Again thanks for taking time to read, and now why not hold your compass up to the light and find direction and LEAP off with us , see, it felt so much easier than it was, could it be simply we are together ?

Tim Taylor